Please See My Rose

My beautiful Rose faded away in my rose garden. A picture of it is in another post here on my blog. I hated to see it go away, I love to look at it in the mornings. It takes away some of the sadness here. Its a very sad life with someone you love is so ill and you know they will not get any better. The roses lifted my spirits but they are gone now. I make and sell girls hairbows, I love ribbon, any kind of ribbon but so far hairbows are the only thing I've made of my ribbons until now. I've been learning how to make ribbon roses. This picture is a rose I made last night while sitting in the living room tending to his dialysis machine. It lifts my spirits so much. I have an idea of a dozen roses all made of ribbons with long stems to give to my Sister and my Sister-n-Law. They are my only Sisters and and it would make me feel so good to give my roses away. This reminds me of a beautiful poem that my far away Friend posted here on my blog. Reaching across the deep waters from another Country she touched on my passion.

Here it is:

I love roses, they are one of my favourite flowers. The rose in your photo is beautiful - I wanted to reach over and smell it ... lol, reminds me of a poem about roses that I once knew ..thought I had lost it but rummaged around and found it in a book in my cupboard - it goes like this:

A Dozen Roses

I Got A Dozen Roses
From A Friend The Other Day
But I Only Have 1 Left
For I Gave Them All Away

I Gave One To My Sister
Who To Me Is Very Dear
In Hopes That It Will Bring To Her
A Little Floral Cheer

I Took One To A Friend
Who's Not Feeling Very Well
The Flower Or The Visit
Which Helped More I Could Not Tell

One Went To A Friend
I Haven't Known For Long -
She Struggles, So In Some Small Way
I Hope This Helps Her Carry On

The Rest Went To The Ones
Who've Helped Me In So Many Ways
They Have Been A Cheerful Presence
On My Very Dreary Days

The Roses Were So Pretty
I Just Could Not Keep Them All
Except One Single Bud Standing
Beautiful And Tall.

My Friend Gave Me The Flowers
To Help Brighten Up My Day
But The Biggest Joy I Received
Was Giving Them Away

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Have a wonderful day, Judy

Does Anyone Else Have A Problem With White House Parties

I do have a problem with the "Party" the President hosted for the Prime Minister of India.

I know its important for the leader of our Country to entertain foreign governments but don't throw it in my face.

Beautiful isn't it, who paid for this I wonder. Who paid for the special chef and was that necessary. The white house has a full kitchen staff and did it have to be such a "party". Do they not remember that the whole country is watching and a great number of this country are out of work, out of food and don't know how they are going to pay the electric bill much less keep their home. Give me a break, the special chef was seen picking items from the garden that Mrs Obama planted with the help of some young children. I thought it was a move to show that a family could grow their own food to help in hard times. My gosh I had to cook my garden goodies myself.

It was a party with who's who attending along with uninvited guest crashing the "Party". Did tax payers money pay for all of this. I really want to know or did Obama's pay out of their pocket. I wonder who OKs a requisition for money's to be spent? Is it a free for all up there. They already spent a fortune on things we would never approve if we were ever consulted. I thought they were at work, wow maybe some of us could go up there and get a better job with benefits.

Let the people that we elected cut some spending in their very privileged little world and remember what they are up there for. Maybe they could learn a lesson from us on how to do without for the sake of the future.

Just tone it down and don't use our money to party all night. Try a quiet dignified dinner in the white house with the appropriate people attending and stop spending our money please.

Forgive the typo's, hmmm maybe that's why I'm not up there.

I'm not a hateful person at all and I think Oboma's are a adorable couple. I love to admire her dresses as much as anyone but this dinner seemed like a show of money. Gosh I thought we didn't have any.

My Day With Kidney Dialysis

This is how I'm coping with my day. I found a rose in full bloom this morning and had to take a picture. I'll swear I'm getting more like my Mother all the time.

I'm not the one on dialysis my husband is. So anything I say is from my point of view.

My moods go up and down depending on how his moods are and how he is feeling.

He sure has had some rough patches the last 3 weeks. A heart attack and one week later his lungs filled with fluid one week later high fevers and stopped eating. He is now falling so I got a walker out for him that was stored in the garage, I can't get him to use it.

He's only 55 and way to young to be this sick.

He told me this morning that he didn't think he would make it.

So I watch him sleep and my heart is broken watching this sweet man waste away.

Today is our 18th anniversary but he's too weak to talk much. So to keep my mind busy I've been in contact with my daughter today and we are on a mission.

Although my husband and I are not destitute we are struggling like lots of people right now.

I can only do so much in the way of repairs to our home, things are scotch taped up pretty good around here.

The large repairs I can't afford and pray for a answer for the burden on my shoulders.

We are in desperate need of a new roof for our house to satisfy our home owners policy. So now were talking impossible. When out of the blue God worked through a stranger from another country to start us on our way. This special person willl never know what they did for me and my husband. The kids are probably tried of hearing me talk and worry about how I'm going to ever replace this roof in time. My daughters and I are so overwhelmed and humbled by the actions of this special person that we decided to put this gift to the best use we could. The new roof is in the works. We have a base to work off now and we will see it through.

So I'm thinking now that maybe I'm wrong about my husband maybe he will get better. Unforseen things do happen and I have hope that his condition will turn around.

This blog is not meant for a diary I make and sell hairbows for little girls. I have had so many emails from people that are suffering from kidney failure and I know that anyone that clicks into this has kidney failure somewhere in there life.

Please remember my husband has type 2 diabetes and uncontroled sugar for years that took his kidneys. Not all kidney failure is permanent.

Forgive the typo's I know they are here, just can't find them.

Lets have a wonderful day, Judy

The Home Dialysis Ups and Downs

I'm looking for all the good that I can find here. The home dialysis is going well its the kidney failure that's the problem. Along with the dialysis comes with other problems. My husbands kidneys failed because he is a diabetic. This is a permanent thing here. Didn't take long to learn the dialysis machine and we just plan our mornings and evenings around hooking up to the machine. It's the other things that a diabetic suffers from. Within the last 3 weeks he has had a heart attack, one week later his lungs filled with fluid then something else never did find out what it was. Fever of 104 stopped eating and drinking not able to walk and very weak. This past weekend I thought I would lose him. The body endures so much he started eating today, walking without falling. He is on the mend and things are looking up.

The home dialysis really is easy to do now. I am so careful about washing my hands before I touch anything. They say wash with a antibacterial soap and sing happy birthday three times. I really feel like a dunce sometimes so I started making up my own lyrics to the song. After washing use antibacterial gel then glove oh and don't forget to mask before you do any of this. The machine does not take up much room but the supplies do. I have 2 walls lined with boxes 10 high of dextrose solution for his dialysis. Home dialysis is so much easier on a person then going to the center to have your blood cleaned.

I really do like it and would advise anyone to try it.
Better health for the patient and gives me a chance to care for him myself.
I have found that in the hospital you can't expect the nurses to know about dialysis. They usually have a PD nurse that will set you up. Even the EMTs did not know and what suprised me was the life flight. The most knowledgable of all really don't know either. You have to be an advocate for you loved one.

Dialysis under these conditions is no bed of roses but not all dialysis is permanet. There are many things that can cause kidney failure. My husband s was caused by many years of high uncontroled sugar. Its very hard to get them to watch thier diet and they pay later. It's a real shame but thats the way it is.

God bless anyone reading this, you would not have clicked on it if you did not have a loved one that was ill. Judy