This is how I'm coping with my day. I found a rose in full bloom this morning and had to take a picture. I'll swear I'm getting more like my Mother all the time.
I'm not the one on dialysis my husband is. So anything I say is from my point of view.
My moods go up and down depending on how his moods are and how he is feeling.
He sure has had some rough patches the last 3 weeks. A heart attack and one week later his lungs filled with fluid one week later high fevers and stopped eating. He is now falling so I got a walker out for him that was stored in the garage, I can't get him to use it.
He's only 55 and way to young to be this sick.
He told me this morning that he didn't think he would make it.
So I watch him sleep and my heart is broken watching this sweet man waste away.
Today is our 18th anniversary but he's too weak to talk much. So to keep my mind busy I've been in contact with my daughter today and we are on a mission.
Although my husband and I are not destitute we are struggling like lots of people right now.
I can only do so much in the way of repairs to our home, things are scotch taped up pretty good around here.
The large repairs I can't afford and pray for a answer for the burden on my shoulders.
We are in desperate need of a new roof for our house to satisfy our home owners policy. So now were talking impossible. When out of the blue God worked through a stranger from another country to start us on our way. This special person willl never know what they did for me and my husband. The kids are probably tried of hearing me talk and worry about how I'm going to ever replace this roof in time. My daughters and I are so overwhelmed and humbled by the actions of this special person that we decided to put this gift to the best use we could. The new roof is in the works. We have a base to work off now and we will see it through.
So I'm thinking now that maybe I'm wrong about my husband maybe he will get better. Unforseen things do happen and I have hope that his condition will turn around.
This blog is not meant for a diary I make and sell hairbows for little girls. I have had so many emails from people that are suffering from kidney failure and I know that anyone that clicks into this has kidney failure somewhere in there life.
Please remember my husband has type 2 diabetes and uncontroled sugar for years that took his kidneys. Not all kidney failure is permanent.
Forgive the typo's I know they are here, just can't find them.
Lets have a wonderful day, Judy
I love roses, they are one of my favourite flowers. The rose in your photo is beautiful - I wanted to reach over and smell it ... lol, reminds me of a poem about roses that I once knew ..thought I had lost it but rummaged around and found it in a book in my cupboard - it goes like this:
ReplyDeleteA Dozen Roses
I Got A Dozen Roses
From A Friend The Other Day
But I Only Have 1 Left
For I Gave Them All Away
I Gave One To My Sister
Who To Me Is Very Dear
In Hopes That It Will Bring To Her
A Little Floral Cheer
I Took One To A Friend
Who's Not Feeling Very Well
The Flower Or The Visit
Which Helped More I Could Not Tell
One Went To A Friend
I Haven't Known For Long -
She Struggles, So In Some Small Way
I Hope This Helps Her Carry On
The Rest Went To The Ones
Who've Helped Me In So Many Ways
They Have Been A Cheerful Presence
On My Very Dreary Days
The Roses Were So Pretty
I Just Could Not Keep Them All
Except One Single Bud Standing
Beautiful And Tall.
My Friend Gave Me The Flowers
To Help Brighten Up My Day
But The Biggest Joy I Received
Was Giving Them Away
~~~~~~~~~
xxDi
I love roses, they are one of my favourite flowers. The rose in your photo is beautiful - I wanted to reach over and smell it ... lol, reminds me of a poem about roses that I once knew ..thought I had lost it but rummaged around and found it in a book in my cupboard - it goes like this:
ReplyDeleteA Dozen Roses
I Got A Dozen Roses
From A Friend The Other Day
But I Only Have 1 Left
For I Gave Them All Away
I Gave One To My Sister
Who To Me Is Very Dear
In Hopes That It Will Bring To Her
A Little Floral Cheer
I Took One To A Friend
Who's Not Feeling Very Well
The Flower Or The Visit
Which Helped More I Could Not Tell
One Went To A Friend
I Haven't Known For Long -
She Struggles, So In Some Small Way
I Hope This Helps Her Carry On
The Rest Went To The Ones
Who've Helped Me In So Many Ways
They Have Been A Cheerful Presence
On My Very Dreary Days
The Roses Were So Pretty
I Just Could Not Keep Them All
Except One Single Bud Standing
Beautiful And Tall.
My Friend Gave Me The Flowers
To Help Brighten Up My Day
But The Biggest Joy I Received
Was Giving Them Away
~~~~~~~~~